Jen's 2009 Strategy: Be Fearless

Alright, so while Angela has been scrapbooking, I've been thinking about the year ahead.

Last year, I decided it was going to be the best year ever! And it really was. I started 2008 with a few life rules.

Have Fun!

Be Happy!

Don't Worry About Problems You Don't Have!! (my favorite and the hardest)

In 2008, I made a lot of friendships, reconnected with a lot of people, and lowered my stress level by 300%. I worked at a job I didn't like, so I quit. I started school and reconnected with a love of learning. I flew by myself to Africa, spent 3 weeks there volunteering and made it home! The biggest thing I did, was learned who I am, and most importantly, I figured out who I want to be. I think Dr Phill would be proud of me.

So, needless to say, last year was pretty incredible! I didn't know how to I'd make this year better. But, I figured it out.

For 2009, I'm going to be Fearless. When I say fearless I don't mean not being scared anymore, but to be scared and to stand up to my fear. I'm scared of a lot of things (moths, rejection you know, normal stuff) but in the face of that fear and that terrified feeling, I'm going to embrace it and pile drive, curb stomp it and shit kick it, knowing that the consequences could be hurtful and that I'll survive.

This year, I am taking my own fate into my own hands. I'm taking the advice I would give others.

You know what I did today?? I still can't believe it, but I texted a boy. A boy I liked. I can't believe I even let myself like a boy. I didn't kiss him and run the other direction at the prospect of liking him and him not liking me (that's what I usually do). He was super nice to me and I feel like he liked me for who I was and that's new to me. (Sad, eh?) I texted him 10 hours ago, I told him I thought he was nice and that we should hang out again sometime. But even if he doesn't call or text back, I can finally say I know what I want in a guy. I know how I want to be treated, that it exists and I am worthy of it. That jump, will be worth it, even if I splatter to the ground!

So this is a big year for me. For the first time in along time, I'm taking the chance, knowing the risk, and I'm okay with it because I can see now how it'll be worth it.

So, Here's to 2009!